Two weeks ago, I read an article about mirror fasting
, and as the idea kept me restless, I'm going to profit from my one week holiday.
The deal is to not look into a mirror or mirroring surface during this period.
I'm not going to stay in my flat, no. I'm gonna do ordinary things. Just without checking my look. This is going to be awesome...
I'm going to keep you up to date with my experiences of fear, self-esteem and such... Let`s see what happens ^^Day 6, Saturday, 21st Nov 2015
Saturday, my birthday and the first day I had to explain my project to my family as they came around.
People are less interested than confused. Their second thought about the project is "I couldn't do that!". I doubt that, ridiculious. They simply don't want to. That's all what it is about. Ppl are unsecure, vain, their looks everything.
My dad's girlfriend owns a clothing shop and she brought some pieces (sweaters, shawls) that I should put on and see if something pleases me as a birthday present. Well, what a perfect chance to check their senses for someone else's style (mine), their honesty towards me and my own self-confidence and trust towards them. Will their words fit with their gazes?
I tried like 5 or 6 pieces and it was a pleasure. Very communicating.
And I chose a piece to which I wouldn't been going for if I where all on my own to pick one. It looked too simply, boring,
but their resonance was clear: that one suited me best. I trust them. EXPERIENCE 4: It`s easy to trust my family's words about my look.
(without checking of course - that`s what it is, about trust )Day 4-5, Thursday/Friday, 19th/20th Nov 2015
Two more days half indoor, half-outdoor. Outside, being in the city and in malls, it is pratically impossible not
to cross mirrors.
They are everywhere. Either to open the room, to give the impression of more ppl, or simply to reflect yourself. I don't really know.
But there's one funny thing I recognized: I need less LIGHT in the bathroom. Even if we have one window in our bathroom, it`s still a little gloomy in there. I usually put on the light, when I enter. Not at the end of the week: Unconsciously, I started using the room in its half-shadowed state the way it is, without puttingon the light, either to go to the toilet, to brush me teeth or hair.
It's because I know where everything has its place. And I don't need the mirror. EXPERIENCE 3: Mirror-fasting is power-saving (electricity).Day 3, Wednesday, 18th Nov 2015
I spend almost the entire day outside and I felt terribly unsecure about my look.
The "problem" is me being totally sick for a few days now: I've a runny nose and a sore throat.
I'm afraid that I do probably look as bad as I feel... which isn't comfortable for my project at all.
When I asked my sister if I'd look as terrible as I feel she instantly said "No." Interesting. EXPERIENCE 2: I don't necessarily do look the way I feel.
I also do touch my face A LOT, just to check if everything is fine... Stupid.Day 2, Tuesday, 17th Nov 2015
My 1st day in public and no self-doubts about my look at all.
I went by car and using the mirrors to watch my surrounding was absolutely no problem.
Am I more self-confident than I thought or was it just being amongst strangers and I care less what they think about me than
I maybe would meeting my collegues/friends/family? EXPERIENCE 1: I need less time in the bathroom in the morningDay 1, Monday, 16th Nov 2015
I covered the 2 mirrors in my flat with a shawl and a huge tissue.
I feel like hiding and shutting myself away, as if the mirror was a window. Weird.
So, the first day is over, and I detected many traps in my flat
The door of my shower is very reflecting as well as the ceiling in our bathroom.
Same goes for the surface in our kitchen were our oven is settled.
The last and REAL mirror I forgot was were these in the hallway:
I took down the garbage and when I came up, I saw myself in fullbodypose
As for those places, I need to pass with more concentration to not look at myself.
As for my inner feelings, I had the urge need to check my look just before my boyfriend was about to come home,
but I couldn't and I didn't. I was a bit grumpy and nervous at first, but I passed to something else,
so that the moment had passed very quickly as well.